25/02
went to jack's place to cel both kel's & miao's bday
here are e vids.
kel's bday
went to his blk to surprise him. wanted to stop e lift at every flr. but, failed.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qviFQ8HhcXY
miao's bday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGpIklbGCgk

i admit, things went wrong partly due to my temper.
im sorry, when im angry i just cant smile and act as if though nth has happen.
i know tht we walked off w/o saying anything was also wrong. but, so what if we go.
not everyone was happy alr.
but like what mos had said. everything is just a misunderstanding.
communication breakdown. all of us assume.
nxt time if we go out agn, let's just not assume.

i read hoonie's blog. she's right.

im writing all these, definitely not on impluse. i've thought for 1 day. i know e consequences.

e definition for friends its like a long list. it just goes on & on, there's no definite ans to it.
but i definitely know, sowing discord is not one of em.
its e 2nd time. rubbing salt on e wound.
1st time it was cheryl & church.
now? miao & jack's.
if e guys talk, u dont need to go agree or say sth else.
let's get this straight. go to jack's place is not to accompany miao to go jack's to eat.
its to celebrate miao's & kel's bday.
its e both of em.
before msging everyone, i've alr asked kel for his opinion too. i did not only get consent frm miao.
i understand its to celebrate their bday. not his. not hers. its THEIR.
and if u really dont have enough $$, reply my msg! say dont have enough money. not until tht very day, then complain so ex. don't have enough money. (i know got alot of ppl dont have enough money too but who reply & tell me dont have enough money?) i believe if anyone reply back say no $ all of us could come up w another place. and not like until tht day then say why not let's not go jack's place go somewhere else? seats were booked alr.
im not sure whether u were comfortable or uncomfortable or happy or shuang or thinking maybe u shld stop when saying all those things to e guys & e 2 girls over there. but have u got any idea tht u are rubbing salt on e wound?
look at e guys, i dont think they will ever do such things to any of e guys. putting down any of e guys in front of so many girls. how abt u? cheryl & miao.
and. respect!
we are friends. we shld be understanding towards one another. dont raise sensitive issues.
maybe u guys not tht fervent. every week/every 2 or 3 days in a week go temple. perphas u guys just pray at home. but christians got to obeserve the Sabbath day.
we've all got different thoughts/committments to our religion.

i rmb at one of e theolo's counselling sessions. sis mag was asking whether do we face difficulties either w your friends or anything (if i did not rmb wrongly). i rmb she asked emmalyn.
and she said, no. cus its her friends. like not anyone. they respected her & what she do. so sis mag asked her whether her friends will like ask her out on sat and say aiyah dont need go church, go out w us luh.
emma said sth like alr said its friends. and they respect. understand. so they know and won't ask her out on sat. will find other days.
at tht moment, i was thinking abt all of u. i clearly rmb e first image which pops out was jasmen's face. (lol!)
i really hope tht u guys would be understanding.
it really hurts. cus u guys are not like anyone. not hi-bye friends. like who gives a damn to what they say. who will feel e pain? no.
but its all because, its you guys.

actually everyone shld reflect. why & how things would come to such a state.
i reflected.
my temper. my attitude. i was too agitated. im petty. my pride. & walking off w/o saying anything.

i know alot of ppl say they give up alr. including me. but stop decieving ourselves.
deep within our hearts, have we really give up?
if we give up. think abt it.
when we grow old or anytime aft we give up, &when we start to reminisce those days we had in zhenghua, no one would be there w u laughing at how stupid we look at tht time, or how childish we were anymore. cus we gave up. even if there is, it would be only 2/3 ppl. then what's e conclusion after reminiscing?
"anyway, no use thinking back, we gave up alr. no longer a grp. not gna go back to sch to visit or whatever tgether anymore." tht's e conclusion.
but of cus, not only reminiscing. & i believe we will regret. cus i guess by giving up, it would leave a mark (/crack) behind in this friendship.
things could be back to last time, if all of us give in, forget abt our pride, admit what we had done was wrong, respect one another, be understanding, don't "shoot" any one anymore & just take it nth has happen & tht its just a bad dream. and let's wake up & wash up & have big breakfast at mac! :D

i still want to keep in touch and meet up even when we grow old and laugh at u guys when u all become BO GEY. hahahaha!!!! i think we will all look cute w missing teeth. lolol!!! & perhaps, kel u can look like how u were like during sec 1&2. but no teeth only.

okay, at least that's what i thought.
nxt bday, jasmen's.

to be or not to be.

ytd, 2602
realise its not like before. cannot do w/o breakfast anymore.
hypoglycemia.
but its kinda good. haha! get to rest in sisters' office, had longer breaks.
was given milo & sweetssss. haha!

tday! 2702
was late, had to hail cab down to sgh.
and.. tadang!!! this's e cab :D its like those typical family car. miao even called and ask who's car we boarded.
its a taxi!! lol!
on e way to sgh, we watch mr bean's cartoon. HAHAHAHA!
even thou its $2.80 not $2.50. its worth it! comfortable, & most imptly! u can watch tv! :DD

mr bean & his green car. haha!


can accomodate 7 passengers.